Saturday, January 31, 2009

Not much happening...

Nothing too exciting to report, we are having our water tested Tuesday ( we have a well, and so it has to be tested) we are just doing this on our own hopefully to get it out of the way so when they say it's time to get it tested we can just hand them the results ( I've been through all of this's making me crazy that I have to wait until the Official homestudy update begins.. ) We tried to go get our fingerprints Wed. but they said we had to have the fingerprint card from a caseworker..find me one, and I'll get a card from her!

Am I the only one that things it absolutly CRAZY that you have to be fingerprinted each time.. why can't they run the prints they already have on us? isn't that how they catch criminals every day?? Why do we have to physically redo fingerprints.. if any one has the answer to that.. please, by all means, enlighten me.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

progress.. er' kinda..

I set up apts. for Terry and I to get our physicals, and there is a 2 month waiting list.. yeesh.. so much for trying to get ahead of the game. I was hoping to have all of this completed before they requested it, so it would speed things up.
Logan and Gabbie already had physicals this year, so we won't have to do those again, unless it takes them 7 months to get to us.

I have to schedule Gidget to update her rabies shot. I'll be doing that Monday hopefully.

We are trying to figure out if we should buy beds for each of the kids rooms ( I've heard it has to be child ready by the home study) we don't know if we are getting a boy or a girl, so I wonder...... can we set up one bed and move it to the other room if needed? or do we need to have a bed in the boys room and a bed in the girls room?
( I know mom....I'm thinking way too much..LOL) I am just so excited and I want to be prepared...and I want to feel connected to my little one?? Is that weird? Having his or her things set up, somehow will make me feel closer to them.

Yesterday was an emotional day for me.. I don't know why. I guess the realization that this is real, I have a child out there somewhere..and I just want to find him or her, and hold them, and kiss their little cheeks and tuck them into a nice cozy bed.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Our first meeting

Our first meeting is scheduled for Tuesday, Feb 3rd. at 6:00P.M. Basically this just tells us what we are about to embark on, the pro's and con's etc..we have already been through this and we know that we are up for it, but we have to do it again, it's routine procedure.

We have a home study ( which includes background checks, physicals for everyone in the family, home visits etc..) because we have to go through all of that in order to be a caring home for the agency we work with, BUT.. the state is making us redo it all..I'm a little bummed, because it takes a while to complete, but I "kinda" understand and we are willing to do what ever it takes to bring our new little love home. We do already have our CPR and first aid certification, so I'm sure we won't have to do that again.. I I know... it's only been a couple of weeks since the decision was made, and I'm ready for my little one TODAY..I'm in for a long road..:(

I would be lying if I said that we weren't completely freaked out at the possibility of loving and loosing a child, it's a chance we have to take. We have to just pray that we can handle what ever happens and just know that we will give each child that comes through our door all the love their little hearts can handle. God has a child(or children) for us, and when it's time, he will bring them home.

**note to self** be patient

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

And so we begin

Wow, I can't believe that I am actually sitting down creating a blog about MY journey through adoption. My husband and I have been a caring home family ( we get to love on and care for children that have been placed for adoption until they find their forever homes, it's a bit different from being a foster parent through the state) for 6 years now and every time I have to say goodbye to a precious little one, it's like a dagger through my heart. Even knowing that they are going to wonderful, loving families, I have an empty space in my heart when they leave.

We have discussed adopting for a long time, I have always known that I wanted to adopt a waiting child and for the past year or so, I have thought about it constantly. On the day of our 11th year wedding anniversary, we made the official decision, sitting on the sofa, watching T.V. it just came out.. it's time, lets get the ball rolling ( I had envisioned the whole thing being a big ordeal when we finally decided to make the first step) I had to keep mentioning little things about he process to Terry and wait for his response just to make sure I hadn't dreamt it. I still couldn't quite believe it, I kept waiting for him to say something like " lets wait until Gabbie is a little older" or it was hard to be really excited at first.

I started cleaning out Gabbie's closet and I asked him to take some of her outgrown clothes to Goodwill and he responded with " But what if we get a little girl, these are cute clothes!" I about fell down.. HOLY COW.. this was REAL! but just to be absolutely sure that I wasn't dreaming, the next morning I told him that I was calling the local DFCS office to set up our classes and home study and his response " OK" WHOOO HOOOO.. folks, I'm tired of goodbyes, I want to bring a waiting child home "For Keeps!"

We will use this blog to document our journey, thanks for coming along for the ride! :)